I’m drowning in shallow water, simply because I don’t want to swim anymore. I’m tired of struggling for air, for a brake in the waves. A chance to resurface. But every time I do I see you standing there waving back at me. I remember the pain you put me through and I’d rather let the ocean swallow me whole and have it’s way with me. I rather sink to the bottom of the ocean where the sun don’t shine and the water’s chilled.  

Because seeing you again is like poison in my veins, You’ll be the death of me, one day…

  I’m here and you’re there; we’re close yet so far.
I can still smell the sweet sent of you and taste your lips on mines.
I see you but I can’t touch you. I’ve refused to see you again
in an effort to move on, but I can’t help but to yearn for your touch
I need you now more than ever. I’ve fallen appart and I can’t put these peaces togather. I’m laying here where we once layed togather, trying to find peace within my sleepless nights. Holding my pillow tight shedding tears all night.

PS: I wrote this a long time ago, but it seems to fit my current state. ugh